i am still here. i am still listening. my place in this world continues to be a mystery. the threat of violence continues to control me. the place i was raised has become the place i fear most. fear has become my operator.
this omni-present energy lordes over me, holds me hostage, exploits my love. it threatens to drag those who mold me through the suffering. it threatens to beat me. it threatens to arrest me. it threatens to disable me. i refuse to believe this force is necessary, yet i am unable to stop responding.
what should i make of my latest emissions being authored by this atmosphere. documenting my perspective hasnt remedied the situation. it has only amplified it. what should i make of my youngest moments being utterly dominated. especially when environment improves. these improvements need not be dependent of this immaterial nature.
ive watched it groom me. ive watched it set me up for the big mistake. i see myself being driven towards the cliff.
i seek the strength to standup to this pressure even in the face of these futuristic nightmares materializing. i seek the strength to gracefully say enough is enough.
i seek sovereignty of self. i seek liberty in all dimensions.
signed, my neighbors, the bald trees