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177 points by neodude 12 years ago · 166 comments

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fit2rule 12 years ago

One of the best things I've ever done for myself is pack up and move to another country - just to get out of the cultural bubble we all get wrapped up in. Culture is nothing but a bunch of lies; when you shift from one to the other and give yourself a reset, you see just how much this brings to bear on the individual. Eventually, dealing with a foreign language and strange people can be quite enlightening, if you treat the exercise as a means of rejuvenating your ability to respect the peace and quiet you'll get, at least for the first year.

I've done it a couple times now, having no real affinity with national identity, but I sure do love the cooking and language I've managed to collect. And finally, real experience with the people of the world, not just My Own Team™ ..

  • HeyLaughingBoy 12 years ago

    Ditto but instead of countries I moved from the Northeast US to the Upper Midwest. Same countries, but personalities, and people's general mood were so different it felt like a foreign country.

    In my case I knew that I needed a change and had to force myself out of the mold I had grown into. Moving halfway across the country to a place I had never been, not knowing anyone there was just the kick in the ass I needed.

  • corford 12 years ago

    >One of the best things I've ever done for myself is pack up and move to another country.

    Having done this 4 times now, I can't tell you how true this is (as is the rest of fit2rule's post).

    To anyone thinking about it, find a way to do it and take the plunge. There's no way in hell you'll regret it.

  • sliverstorm 12 years ago

    It can be hard work to rebuild your social circles though. Unfortunately for some of us, we are both not great at building social circles, and also fairly dependent on them for sanity.

    In my experience I can go for about a year without a solid social circle, but after that I start to go nuts.

  • danpat 12 years ago

    This absolutely mirrors my own experience.

    • sdfjkl 12 years ago

      Mine as well. It will change you for live, and from my experience meeting other expats, I think for the better. You get a whole new perspective on both origin and destination countries. Even if you go back after a few years, you'll be changed.

      No, going somewhere on holiday for a few weeks/months is not the same. You have to live and make a living there.

  • vijayr 12 years ago

    Where did you move from, and which countries did you move to?

    • fit2rule 12 years ago

      Australia->America->Japan->England->Germany->Austria.

      Very 'western' I know, but nevertheless, lots of culture got stripped away, new layers added, and underneath it all I found myself. Soon as my kids get a bit older, we'll probably move to Peru.

ibejoeb 12 years ago

> I might stand in a corner by myself staring awkwardly at my phone

Word of advice to anyone who might be anxious going out alone: don't bring your phone. If you're just going to distract yourself with it because you feel less awkward, you might as well stay home, because you're depriving yourself of the opportunity to notice what's going on. If you just go and actually pay attention, there will be opportunities to participate.

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I want to amend this because I feel like it might come across as a little hostile, but that's not the intention. A few points on the reasoning:

* A party will have a host, and it's his job to integrate you. You shouldn't really have to work that hard. Find the host and he'll try to get you involved.

* There are guests that will do the same. If I'm out with a group, I'll happily involve a newcomer.

* Both of these fall apart if you walk in and immediately look disinterested. I'm not going to approach a person on his phone. In my head, he's either temporarily busy or doesn't want to be there, and I'm not going to risk being an ass and interrupting on the off chance that you're just shy. (I've got better ways of looking like an ass.)

If you can't resist the temptation to delve into your phone, you're not genuinely putting yourself out there.

tazjin 12 years ago

Stopped reading after

> Preface: As a white, heterosexual, cis, male, I’m granted, from birth, an extraordinary amount of privilege

I wasn't actually aware people outside of the Tumblrverse said things like that. (Over on Reddit there is /r/TumblrInAction for things like this)

  • spindritf 12 years ago

    Oh, good. It's not just me.

    > Preface: As a white, heterosexual, cis, male, I’m granted, from birth, an extraordinary amount of privilege

    This is crazy, intellectually debilitating blabber. And just wrong on a blog[1].

    We already allowed lawyers and CYA politicians to slap warning labels on everything (despite the fact that it's counter-productive[2]). Are we now going to put disclaimers on private blogs?

    Or is it like a weird way to brag? "I'm not affected by any common affliction." (You forgot "able-bodied" BTW which is much more important that those other things.) Better yet, "I, being of sound mind and body do hereby publish this blogpost."

    [1] http://www.overcomingbias.com/2008/06/against-disclai.html

    [2] http://pss.sagepub.com/content/24/9/1842

    • md224 12 years ago

      > This is crazy, intellectually debilitating blabber.

      Would you care to elaborate on what's crazy and intellectually debilitating about the sentence you quoted? I know people that would agree completely with that sentence, so I'd be curious to hear your perspective and why you feel it's wrong.

      • thwest 12 years ago

        Perhaps the concepts of gender and race are so foreign that it is literally difficult to think about and therefore "debilitating".

    • makomk 12 years ago

      He also completely failed to mention mental health issues, which was the more glaring omission for me.

  • steveklabnik 12 years ago

    It's actually directly relevant; they're acknowledging that when they say "if you're lonely, just get out there and say hello!" is an acceptable option partially because it really is true that at the worst, they'll feel uncomfortable. Someone who does not come from this place in life has a myriad of other things that can add to the downsides in this equation, and when you stack the two up against each other, they start looking differently really quickly.

    Of course, since you skipped the "please remember the position I come from and critically engage with how that effects the thoughts I have," I shouldn't have expected you to.

    • tomp 12 years ago

      Could you explain a bit more, why exactly does this advice "just get out there" not apply to anyone who isn't either white, heterosexual, cis or male?

      • britta 12 years ago

        There are many potential examples, but I'll explain an example from my own experience. I'm a woman, and I've enjoyed tagging along with my male friend who is very friendly at conferences and similar events, talking to all kinds of strangers and having good conversations.

        That looked like a fun skill to have, so I tried doing it on my own - introducing myself to other attendees, asking about their work and projects, etc. And I ran into a bunch of awkward situations where the person responded as if I were flirting with them (inevitably most of the people I talked to were men, since most of the people at those conferences were men). No, I actually just wanted to learn more about your company's business model.

        I was copying my male friend's style of talking to other men, and I was interpreted differently. I've adjusted my approach now to reduce the chances of misunderstandings like that.

        • tomp 12 years ago

          And your conclusion is that if a man did the same (copying a woman's style of talking to other women, and going around introducing himself to (mostly) women attendees), the outcome would be different? If not, it's not really a case of male privilege.

          • tptacek 12 years ago

            Her conclusion is that when she follows the standard advice to get out there and talk to people, the men she talks to think that she's flirting with them. Whereas when you or I talk to men, they very rarely think we're flirting with them.

            A subtext that you may have missed is that it's very awkward and uncomfortable to have only one party to a conversation think that the conversation is sexually charged, and the possibility of that happening is a disincentive to circulating and socializing.

            I thought it was a pretty straightforward observation, but hopefully my summary helps you. Translating basic human experience to nerd-ese --- all part of the service we provide!

            • tomp 12 years ago

              I don't like your tone. I think I got all of the subtext.

              However, my argument was that if the situations were reversed, the outcome would be exactly the same. Go to a place where there are predominantly women (any dance class or even a Yoga class, feminist conference), and if you and I would try to "talk to them like we talk to men", many of them would assume that we're flirting with them. Or do my observations not concur with yours?

              • tptacek 12 years ago

                First, I think you're wrong. My wife does roller derby. I have gone to roller derby events with her. What do you think the male/female ratio is there? How many women there thought I was flirting with them? Zero.

                Second, I think your response deliberately discards context. If socializing at "dance class" made women think I was flirting with them, and I was thus disincentivized from going to dance class, I'd... what, be a poorer dancer? Britta's story is about a career problem, not a "not fitting into dance class" problem.

                Finally, I think your response totally misses the point. You do not win any kind of rhetorical award for coming up with some kind of table-turning scenario about "feminist conferences", because those scenarios don't have anything whatsoever to do with Britta's experience. She wasn't trying to score points. She was explaining why a piece of standard advice given to people about making connections in their profession is difficult for women.

            • britta 12 years ago

              Yes! Thanks.

          • arbitrarywords 12 years ago

            Maybe imagine you're a happily married account manager for a baby formula company and then when you go to professional conferences (of mostly women), every time you try to engage someone or get involved in a group conversation the talk subtly turns to nipple tenderness and mid-term horniness. It makes doing your job and life in general harder than if you were just another woman.

        • wglb 12 years ago

          Can you say what the adjustment was?

          • britta 12 years ago

            For one, I talk less to people I don't know; the potential for awkwardness changes the risk/reward calculation.

            I am also more serious when I'm talking to people I don't know - less smiling, more matter-of-fact, cool instead of warm. This is artificial for me since I'm generally friendly, but apparently it's less confusing.

            I spend a lot more time reading the situation to get a better feel for how people are likely to respond, including whether people at the conference/event are likely to already have a reasonable amount of experience working/talking with women as peers.

            Or I find ways to meet new people while I'm with other people, such as joining groups that have positioned themselves to be open to others joining in. Or convincing friends - or people I've just met - to tag along with me to meet other people.

      • swombat 12 years ago

        It's still sadly the case that in many parts of the world, if you're, say, gay, and you "get out there" and end up talking to the wrong person, they might gang up on you in the parking lot as you leave and beat the shit out of you.

        It's fairly unlikely in a civilised surrounding, but civilisation is rarer than you think.

        As a straight white male, your potential downside from getting into a chat with someone at a party does not include serious bodily harm. Most people are nice to you by default.

        Another example: an outgoing, alone woman might be perceived as easy or sleazy by some Neanderthal-like person she talks to, and could end up with a lot of unwanted attention from saying hi to the wrong people. Again, unlikely, depends on the surroundings/crowd, but still.

        As a white straight guy, going to a totally random party alone is a much safer proposition.

        • tomp 12 years ago

          I assumed we're speaking about the first world. I totally agree that different people are treated differently by the (majority of the) society, but to speak of privilege... Maybe women are more likely to be touched by strangers in a club, but most of my male friends have already been assaulted, either in clubs or in the street. I was assaulted in broad dailght. I don't personally know any woman that had anything similar happen to her, which of course doesn't say much, but claiming that one sex (or race) has it uniformly better or worse than another seems a bit of a stretch to me.

          • swombat 12 years ago

            Even the "first world" can vary greatly. You'll get a different risk profile in some small town in the middle of the bible belt in the US than you would in central London, for example. As I said, civilisation is rarer than you think.

      • phillmv 12 years ago

        It's not that it doesn't apply, it's just not as straightforward.

        As a white, cis, straight male (with a good job, I might add) there are few venues you aren't automatically welcome at and compatible with.

        Flip any of those variables and "just get out there" is less applicable or harder. It's not like being a white male is a cheat code at life, but you spawn with a fuller inventory and a couple rings of +2 less bulshit.

      • VLM 12 years ago

        In before the tired allusion to going out for skittles and tea after smoking weed at midnight (in florida)

        Reality is it applies to everyone and its just a "woe is me" strategy. I "can't" socialize because I'm not pasty white, well there's a load off my back I don't have to be responsible for anymore.

  • cobrausn 12 years ago

    As a former Catholic, when I read lines like that I can't help but be struck with the observation that this seems to be a feminist/progressive version of confessing your sins in order to be absolved of them.

    • mindslight 12 years ago

      It's more of an original sin you can never be absolved of and are supposed to continually prostrate yourself for.

      Of course there are people in situations for which the advice in this article is a non-starter. But does that preface actually specifically address them, or is it just a cargo-cult disclaimer to keep the responses from being derailed by feel-good plighties? And how should one feel if they are so "privileged" yet still cannot bring themselves to follow this advice?

      • roflc0ptic 12 years ago

        Yeah, exactly. I'm deeply sympathetic towards lefty activists and activism, but I just cannot get over how much privilege "politics" [sic] sounds like original sin.

        1. Being racist is bad 2. All white people are racist (by virtue of being born into a racist culture)

        Ergo... all white people are bad. And I've seen several facebook posts by people of color that say things like "I'M DONE WITH WHITE PEOPLE." And I'm even somewhat sympathetic to that: All the evidence I've seen indicates I get treated better for being a tolerably handsome white dude. That must be kind of infuriating.

        But at the end of the day, it's this culture that is often hostile to white dudes on principal, and just... okay? I guess I won't talk to you at parties if you don't want me to?

        • phillmv 12 years ago

          >But at the end of the day, it's this culture that is often hostile to white dudes on principal, and just... okay?

          So, the premise that this begins with starts not with the notion that you're a bad person who doesn't deserve to live but more from the notion, popular in lefty circles, that your opinion about the plight of less privileged people doesn't matter precisely because you have no experience in the subject matter.

          There is a legitimate criticism that people have swung too far into these kinds of identity politics, and that they're ultimately more divisive than not. Ultimately, they prevent the formation of a communal polity that can work together on shared incentives rather than splintering into a fractal set of identities.

          It gets trickier because a lot of white dudes parse this as a personal attack and thus get (appropriately, from their perspective) upset. I'm not personally, consciously responsible! What did I do wrong?

          The key thing to keep in mind is, if you're not a white dude, you've spent most of modern history totally shut out of the conversation. It's extremely infuriating! And having white dudes complaining that they're not being listened to - with all the attending historical baggage that claim carries - only compounds that frustration. Which is why people lash out.

          We're still in a state of flux; things will settle down one way or another. But I think it's worth keeping in mind the difference between "All white people are racist" and "We're really tired of only listening to the opinions of white people". Usually, people mean the latter and not the former.

          • cobrausn 12 years ago

            The key thing to keep in mind is, if you're not a white dude, you've spent most of modern history totally shut out of the conversation.

            The key thing you are forgetting when you say 'shut up, straight white boy'[1] is that throughout most of history (and still today), even if you were a white male, you were statistically speaking poor and fairly unimportant, and also shut out of 'the conversation'.

            There is a fairly significant difference between accepting additional input from those with a different perspective (inclusive) and excluding input because of perceived privilege based on race/gender/etc (exclusive).

            [1] I'm adapting this from the title of a feminist blog post critical of the term 'privilege' as a useful rhetorical device, which curiously cannot be found (404), don't take it literally...

            • phillmv 12 years ago

              >even if you were a white male, you were statistically speaking poor and fairly unimportant, and also shut out of 'the conversation'.

              Well, it's not about your individual, direct contribution but your place in that system of power.

              Just because you're not directly related to powerful rich white men doesn't mean that their decisions - while mostly targetted at "rich" rather than "white and male" - haven't also and continue to benefit you to this day.

              My great-great-great-grandfather may have been a penniless shmuck of no importance - but whoever he was he was still the head of his household and had some modicum of rights. His wife on the other hand, would have been largely considered to be his property. Had he died after her first born son came of age, she might not even inherit anything he leaves behind - or be forced to marry his younger brother, or etc etc.

              And woe betide you if you were born black 50+ years ago.

              I know the above isn't in question but what I'm getting at is - we still benefit in some way from all of this and the fact that our feelings get hurt, or we aren't personally responsible isn't particularly interesting.

              I'm not defending the practice - I too lean towards saying "it's way too abrasive" but I fundamentally sympathize with the underpinning. Anything I say is likely to be in my interests.

          • roflc0ptic 12 years ago

            >>here is a legitimate criticism that people have swung too far into these kinds of identity politics, and that they're ultimately more divisive than not. Ultimately, they prevent the formation of a communal polity that can work together on shared incentives rather than splintering into a fractal set of identities.

            This is a really good articulation of my feelings about it; better than I've managed so far. :)

            >>It gets trickier because a lot of white dudes parse this as a personal attack and thus get (appropriately, from their perspective) upset. I'm not personally, consciously responsible! What did I do wrong?

            Often it is a personal attack. "SHUT THE FUCK UP CIS WHITE MALE" isn't satire; it's something I've seen written by someone I personally know to someone else I personally know. The hostility is exhausting and alienating. It's bad because people confuse that hostility with making the world a better place; it turns into a group bullying activity, and people form identities around performing their animus towards some individual members of a group.

            That animus has been poison in my life and my community, and I'm taking steps to permanently separate myself from activism because of it. I know several other people who have quit for that particular reason. Capitalism is destroying the biosphere and immiserating most of humanity on its way out and this is the best we've got. I just. I can't deal with it.

        • nollidge 12 years ago

          Your more astute social justice commentators tend to point out that everybody is racist (and sexist and transphobic and and and). Including people of color against their own race, because they are not immune to the constant messages that they are "the other".

          I think it's good to read those frustrated messages with some sympathy. I don't think they're saying they're completely done with ever talking to white people for any reason (like at a party); I think they're just expressing their exhaustion with having to have the same Racism 101 conversations about race with white people. Because white people, as a whole, when hearing about the experiences PoC have, tend to dismiss or question or rationalize rather than listening and considering.

          I'm white. I've only recently started paying attention to this shit and already I've seen the repetition of the same tired ideas put forth, especially in HN threads like this one. I can roll my eyes and stop having to think about it for a while (or forever, if I wanted to), but people of color don't really have that luxury.

          • roflc0ptic 12 years ago

            "I can roll my eyes and stop having to think about it for a while (or forever, if I wanted to), but people of color don't really have that luxury."

            This gets straight back to the guilt thing, though. This idea that it's a luxury that I have, sure. True. What actions does this observation imply, though? None, as far as I can see, except feeling bad. Should I go listen to people of color voice their experiences because they don't feel listened to? I do, you know, and I do listen with some sympathy, but I don't think it's ever done anyone a bit of good.

            • makomk 12 years ago

              Well, if you look at the comment you're replying to it's already telling you something concrete you can do beyond merely feeling bad: namely, being sympathetic to people of colour when they say things like "I'm done with white people" out of frustration, and not (for instance) immediately holding this up as proof that PoC are just as racist and so shouldn't complain. You may not like the idea of doing that, but it's definitely a concrete action.

            • nollidge 12 years ago

              I think listening does a bit of good. Understanding does even more, and sharing that understanding so they don't have to does even more good. The unfortunate fact is that you'll be listened to better by another white person than a person of color, who'll be perceived as being "biased".

    • theorique 12 years ago

      Nail on the head.

      Since fewer people are religious and more people are cynically postmodern, different ideologies and beliefs (e.g. 'antiracism', 'social justice', 'Objectivism') creep in to fill the void which was formerly occupied by religion.

    • king_jester 12 years ago

      Its not confessing for absolution, its a disclaimer: I'm a white dude, I have certain advantages/privileges, YMMV.

      • cobrausn 12 years ago

        If YMMV, then why the need for the disclaimer?

        Assigning 'privilege' to race and gender seems fairly lazy to me, considering there are so many ways that it may not actually be a privilege to everybody. You know what is always, without fail, a privilege? Coming from money. When I was growing up, the term 'privileged' could be used without argument that way.

  • jskopek 12 years ago

    Do you disagree with the author? Depending on where you live, his point is very valid. As a resident of Canada, I feel that I live in a fairly progressive, culturally diverse society. Yet even here, I have heard friends of different ethnicities complain about racial issues.

    Not all racial or gender divisions are obvious; exclusion or denial of privilege is harder to spot.

    • Stealth- 12 years ago

      As another resident of Canada, I have to completely disagree with you.

      I have to pay $20,000 for my schooling. My first nations friends pay nothing, it's covered by tax payers. This includes numerous other benefits that I do not get. In Canada, unfortunately it can often seem like the minority have more privileges. That's not equality, to me.

      • shinratdr 12 years ago

        And all they had to do to get that was to be ripped from their homes and placed into residential schools, which existed into the 60s. What a sweet deal!

        This smacks of tremendous ignorance of the history of First Nations people and what white Canadians have done to them. It's possibly the most concrete demonstration of white privilege I've ever seen.

        "Well gee, I'm just a simple guy, but I don't think trying to balance out the horrible things that people of my race did to people of another race well into the 1900s that irreversibly affected their communities ability to survive is all that fair if I don't get those things too!"

        It's all well and good to want a level playing field, but when you've spend the last century digging everyone else into gigantic holes, it kind of rings a little hollow.

        • Stealth- 12 years ago

          Growing up in a poorer neighbourhood, the native friends I had were able to play football, have school lunches, go on fieldtrips, and go to university when I could not because they were paid for with tax payers' dollars.

          My grandparents were not even in this country at the time, it was not my ancestors nor me that hurt anyone. So I should have less because of what someone with the same skin colour as me did decades ago? Doesn't that seem a little, I don't know, discriminatory?

          • shinratdr 12 years ago

            > the native friends I had were able to play football, have school lunches, go on fieldtrips, and go to university when I could not because they were paid for with tax payers' dollars.

            I don't know where you live but in Toronto with the exception of university tuition, all those things are provided for children that can't afford them regardless of their background. The concept of not letting a child go on a field trip or go hungry at lunch because they couldn't afford it is just insane to my ears.

            > My grandparents were not even in this country at the time, it was not my ancestors nor me that hurt anyone.

            Good thing this has little or nothing to do with punishing the descendants of those who may or may not have perpetrated injustice. It's about providing a leg-up to those that have been held down for decades. You had no such disadvantages so you don't receive the leg up.

            > Doesn't that seem a little, I don't know, discriminatory?

            Providing benefits to anyone while excluding anyone else is technically discrimination. That's doesn't make it bad. Not all things are equal. It's discrimination that students pay less than you to take the subway. Also discrimination, also not a bad thing.

            • canistr 12 years ago

              > I don't know where you live but in Toronto with the exception of university tuition, all those things are provided for children that can't afford them regardless of their background. The concept of not letting a child go on a field trip or go hungry at lunch because they couldn't afford it is just insane to my ears.

              As insane as it may sound for a Torontonian, I grew up in Scarborough where many people didn't go on field trips simply because of the cost. Some kids had small lunches. And I grew up in a time where, because of cut backs in education costs, students were required to pay a "course fee" of about $50 at the beginning of the term in high school to pay for additional learning supplies for classes. Which usually amounted to the fee required to print workbooks, provide extra writing materials, or even art supplies.

            • cobrausn 12 years ago

              Providing benefits to anyone while excluding anyone else is technically discrimination. That's doesn't make it bad. Not all things are equal. It's discrimination that students pay less than you to take the subway. Also discrimination, also not a bad thing.

              Except for that it's discrimination based on need and not race.

              • shinratdr 12 years ago

                Sometimes race correlates to need. In the case of First Nations peoples in Canada, it very much does.

                • cobrausn 12 years ago

                  So, agreeing that race can (in some cases) be a good predictor of need, we can agree that the opposite is not true? Case in point, the OP had need, but got no help because he was the 'wrong' race. If your goal is to create lasting racial division and engender feelings of racial inequality and unfairness, race-based discrimination (in the form of benefits) seems to do the trick - here we are, years later, and it still bothers him.

          • king_jester 12 years ago

            > Growing up in a poorer neighbourhood, the native friends I had were able to play football, have school lunches, go on fieldtrips, and go to university when I could not because they were paid for with tax payers' dollars.

            Everyone should have access to these things, that some first nations people got this while you didn't isn't a problem with first nations people, but society at large not caring for its members. Of course, it is important to remember that first nations people experience that lack of care in unique and often violent ways.

            > My grandparents were not even in this country at the time, it was not my ancestors nor me that hurt anyone. So I should have less because of what someone with the same skin colour as me did decades ago? Doesn't that seem a little, I don't know, discriminatory?

            You or your immediate ancestors didn't have to be there to benefit from that past and the situation it fosters today. You frame this as you being targeted to get less, which is really far from the truth about how first nations people live in Canada today. Finally, no you are not being discriminated against, you are benefiting directly and indirectly from past and current colonialist policies in Canada if you are white.

        • kyzyl 12 years ago

          > And all they had to do to get that was to be ripped from their homes and placed into residential schools, which existed into the 60s.

          Just FYI, the last Canadian residential school closed in... drum roll... 1996. Sweet deal indeed.

      • brian_cloutier 12 years ago

        Trust me, I know how you feel. I was a National Merit Semifinalist while my friend with far weaker academics was an Hispanic National Merit Finalist and won a full-ride to her college of choice. As a white male, it was a little annoying going down the list of scholarships and having precious few open to me.

        The thing to understand about racism is that it's a societal thing, not an individual thing. Discrimination against an individual can be racist, but only if it contributes to the racism of a society. (I know, the academic usage of "racism" is unfortunately a little different than the colloquial usage)

        In your individual case, you might not be as privileged as the students around you, but your race certainly is. I don't know much about Canada, but Native Americans have quantifiably rough lives. On average they make less, are more likely to become alcoholics, and are less likely to make it through college.

        It's not about what your ancestors did. People bring that up a lot but you shouldn't be held accountable for the actions of people you never met just because you're related to them. In fact, you aren't held accountable. But you still have to deal with the society we live in as a result of the actions your ancestors took. That society is deeply inequal, and by providing things like scholarships we're accelerating progress in equality that traditionally takes decades to come about.

      • canistr 12 years ago

        Look, I'm a Canadian myself. I paid the $20,000/year tuition for my schooling too (thank you Waterloo Co-op!). But frankly, it's very easy for the both of us to claim we are deserving of certain privileges or that we worked hard to get where we are based on our own family socio-economic situations.

        But the reality is that to get to this point, many immigrant families and first nations families face enormous difficulty to meet their basic needs. To get to this country is one thing, to get here without anything is another. To have everything taken away and having to build it up without a strong support network is difficult. Equality isn't just about the money, it's about the community around you that helps create an environment that allows you to grow and succeed. By just pointing at the price tag, you're oversimplifying so many social factors and issues that play into how you get into university, get out, and start your career path in which, for families coming from difficult situations can simply be solved by some money.

        Oh, and in case you were wondering, I am a visible minority myself. I didn't suffer and neither did my parents because the heavy burden was taken care-of by my great-grandparents and grandparents notwithstanding blatant racism by society and even government laws. I'm several generations removed from understanding the economic difficulties, but I'm still very much rooted in the cultural and social ones.

        • Stealth- 12 years ago

          My point is that the people that get the benefits are not necessarily the people that need them the most. I've seen many families with status that did not need the money, but took advantage of it. I've also seen many families that needed the money, but could not get it because they were not status.

          I completely agree with a support system for people who need it, but I do NOT think that system should be based on racial background.

          • canistr 12 years ago

            If you agree, then we should start with the top (e.g. bankers/corporations) who get away with tax loop-holes. And you're mistaking the long-tail of different minorities who face various socio-economic problems with a myopic scenario.

    • mkr-hn 12 years ago

      It has a lot more to do with financial status and social standing than any other factor. A white guy growing up and living in a poor part of the southeast has a very different experience from a white guy who grew up in a mansion. Race and gender are poor guides to figuring out how much a person struggles.

      • FD3SA 12 years ago

        Precisely. It never ceases to amaze me how splintered the socioeconomic classes become via interest groups. Men vs. women, Black vs White vs Hispanic, Christian vs Muslim vs Jew vs atheist, Democrat vs Republican, gay vs straight vs trans, etc etc.

        Socioeconomic status is the only real differentiator, and these factions only serve to divide the people whose interests are in reality, quite aligned. Unsurprisingly, this tends to greatly assist those at the top of the socioeconomic ladder in maintaining political deadlock on issues which greatly assist the majority at the expense of the tiny minority. Issues such as the social safety net, healthcare, education, infrastructure, and democratic process.

        A cursory review of history shows that this is not a novel strategy.

    • sp332 12 years ago

      There's a big difference in perspective between saying "the majority is privileged" and saying "the minority is disadvantaged". When the majority is heterosexual, white, and "cis-gendered", isn't that the baseline instead of privileged?

      • king_jester 12 years ago

        Having your status considered the baseline is a part of privilege. Folks who fall outside of that baseline face real negative consequences for it. Both "the majority is privileged" and "the minority is disadvantaged" are true at the same time.

        • sp332 12 years ago

          OK so the majority has some privilege just from being the majority. But that isn't a moral failing, something they should be ashamed of, something they shouldn't take full advantage of, or something they can change. So it doesn't seem to have anything in common with, say, racism or sexism.

      • shinratdr 12 years ago

        That depends entirely on the direction you're observing from.

        • sp332 12 years ago

          Let's say things are set up to pander to the majority, even when it puts a minority at a disadvantage. What is the argument for making things harder for the majority, to equalize things for the minority? On average, society would come out worse, so you'd have to argue that equality itself is more valuable than any advantage for the majority.

          • king_jester 12 years ago

            > What is the argument for making things harder for the majority, to equalize things for the minority?

            Nobody is arguing to make things harder or worse for those with privilege. Generally people are asking for equal consideration and opportunity and a recognition of past and existing injustice.

            • sp332 12 years ago

              Well you may not be, but many people are.

              • thwest 12 years ago

                Show me where people are advocating anti-white and anti-cis policies.

                • sp332 12 years ago

                  If you’re straight, consider a commitment ceremony but don’t get married until all people can share in that legal right should they so choose.

                  If you’re a white person with wealth and children, choose to invest in and send your children to a local, public, neighborhood school or at least a private school with a strong commitment to diversity and inclusion rather than a lily-white private place with connections to the Ivy League.

                  http://everydayfeminism.com/2012/12/how-to-talk-to-someone-a...

                  • thwest 12 years ago

                    How does asking people to consider choices "make things harder or worse for those with privilege"?

                    • sp332 12 years ago

                      The article is asking people to make their lives worse. The suggestions are predicated on the assumption that the alternatives listed are less desirable.

          • rsml 12 years ago

            Taken to its logical extreme, you could argue that sometimes it is advantageous for a society to harvest the organs of a healthy person, so that multiple people can have their lives extended through transplantation. Eugenics can also be argued for by saying that there's a net benefit to society.

            One argument against this is based on the philosophical concept of a Veil of Ignorance[1]. We should create the rules of society as if we don't already know what our position in society will be. No one wants to live in a society where they could be randomly selected for organ harvesting, for example.

            [1] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Veil_of_ignorance

          • phillmv 12 years ago

            Well, by your own metaphor on _average_ society would come out the same, by definition. (I suspect you meant median).

            As a result, it sounds like you're saying "screw you, I got mine". We can flip the question around: why does this majority deserve better opportunities? There aren't very good answers to that question.

            The main thing I'd point out is that unlike your metaphor society is not a zero-sum game.

            • sp332 12 years ago

              Well, by your own metaphor on _average_ society would come out the same, by definition.

              No, if you make things worse for 90% of the population, and make it better for 10% of the population, the total is worse and therefore the average (mean) is worse.

              Edit: an example. Let's say the first 9 people rate society at 10 points, and the last one rates it a 4. Total 94, mean 9.4, median 10. Now change things around so everyone is equal and ranks things a 9. Total 90, mean 9.0, median 9. Even though the majority is almost as happy as before, and the minority is much happier, most measures come out worse.

              • phillmv 12 years ago

                Why is the total going down in the after picture? Because our points only belong to the set of natural numbers ;)?

                We're assuming in this totally contrived example that points are a measure of total resources + opportunity in our closed system, since we're implying a redistribution of a fixed pool of resources^1.

                So, the total in the "after" picture would still be 94 and thus the mean would remain at 9.4 and the median would be 9.4 - (and down from 10).

                I'm not a fan of arguing from averages - realistically, the picture is more like 1 - 1000pts, 2 - 100pts, 3-50pts, 4-30pts, 5, 6-7 - 20pts, 8-10 10pts

                ~ 1270 total, avg 127, median 20.

                But these are all contrived examples (in the above I'm more leaning on income distribution, which I've reproduced from memory and may be skewed). If we equalize the above, the median would go up.

                The argument for redistribution can be made on an economic/statistical basis - but the argument for equality, I think, is ultimately moral. It's not about fairness per se, but about justice.

                ^1 Not quite my stance but for the sake of argument.

                • sp332 12 years ago

                  Oh, I see! I wasn't really considering a zero-sum situation. In the argument from justice, you think it's a moral mandate to take money away from people because other people have less money?

                  • phillmv 12 years ago

                    Well, if you're going to compare two scenarios using a numerical example, I think the assumption that the total pool of opportunity would decrease is a rather strong one!

                    >In the argument from justice, you think it's a moral mandate to take money away from people because other people have less money?

                    Well, not because other people have less money.

                    My politics are roughly "people should do whatever they want, but they should have to pay the price of the externalities of their actions", sprinkled with "reducing overall human misery is virtuous".

                    More like, because in order for the massively wealthy to exist there's a strong argument that there has to be a massive underclass to go along with it. In this light, being rich creates the externality of forcing people to be poor, and as a result it's perfectly moral to redistribute some of that wealth.

                    Another argument goes, we have a more vibrant and stable society if we ensure that a) everyone is healthy and gets a good education and b) no one person or group in particular can amass so much power as to be capable of destabilizing society as a whole.

                    There are a few other argument, but at the time of writing I think those two are the strongest. We can talk about right wrongs from the historical record, we can talk about the duty to minimize misery, we can talk about private property is a state-regulated right and thus it's legitimate to argue over it, we can talk about theological underpinnings, etc etc.

                    You may disagree, of course.

          • shinratdr 12 years ago

            > On average, society would come out worse

            That's a massive leap in logic. Society isn't a simple one in, one out metric.

          • FkZ 12 years ago

            "What is the argument for making things harder for the majority, to equalize things for the minority?"

            That is an argument no one is making. What are you talking about?

      • twelvechairs 12 years ago

        the majority isnt all those things and male.

        • sp332 12 years ago

          White women are still privileged over other women (in the US and Canada anyway). You don't have to be male to be privileged.

    • jrs99 12 years ago

      Do you know what it feels like to be a 5'1" white male or a 7'2" obese white male or a 6'5" white female? Race problems do exist, but because you're white doesn't mean you don't have problems with society.

      • nollidge 12 years ago

        Nope, it doesn't, but does mean you don't have some particularly common ones!

    • strathmeyer 12 years ago

      As a heterosexual white male it was very interesting to learn that all the thing I have been denied because of my race and gender should have been a privilege and that I have never actually been an outsider and have actually been the cause of everyone's loneliness instead of legitimately feeling it myself.

    • volaski 12 years ago

      "I'm a white guy, I am so more privileged than most black guys" "I'm a guy, I am so more privileged than most girls" "I'm a white guy, I am so more privileged than most asian guys" "I'm a straight guy, I am so more privileged than most gay guys"

      How do these make you feel?

      Also how about someone went up to an old man and said, "You are an old man in your sixties, and I'm a college kid in my twenties. You will die much earlier than me. That's pretty much close to fact. Do you disagree?"

    • altero 12 years ago

      I am European, but to me that sounds racist "I am white and heterosexual, I have the privilege". Like other people are worth less because they do not have privilege?

      I understand there are bonus points for this in America. But it also means that rest of the article is very likely going to be a political rant

  • nooron 12 years ago

    Since I just moved to the Bay and spend a lot of time alone, the article really resonated with me.

    I'm all of these things except heterosexual. As as adult, I'm also not readily identifiable as homosexual. But as a kid my perceived lack of masculinity (among many other things) definitely made me a target.

    I can confirm that being alone now, by my choice, is much more pleasant and gratifying than being alone, by the choice of others.

    He's on to something.

  • kanja 12 years ago

    It's no wonder he has such trouble socializing. When you wear self loathing on your sleeve like that, people will respond accordingly. It's wonderful to want to make a better world, but when everything you say, think, or do needs to be excused and caveated you can't help but internalize that.

  • icebraining 12 years ago

    Stopped reading your post after "Stopped reading".

    • throwmeaway2525 12 years ago

      Stopped not laughing when I read your comment.

    • aristomc 12 years ago

      lol

      • aristomc 12 years ago

        haha 4 downvotes for finding a comment humorous, I think the first paragraph of the article is quite powerful and a good contextual way of starting things off. Worth a read.

        • nadiaks 12 years ago

          I can see contextually how you didn't mean any harm but I guess it was misinterpreted.

          No need to downvote 4 times for an "lol".

          It was the second paragraph that was equally as powerful for me.

          Cheers

  • jakecarpenter 12 years ago

    Your loss, it is a good read. Tumblr can't possibly be the only place you're exposed to uncomfortable opinions on the interwebs, can it?

  • angersock 12 years ago

    Despite the rather silly checking of privilege at the beginning of the article, it's kind of sweet read (like, "dawwww :3").

  • xacaxulu 12 years ago

    Agreed! Way to apologize for your sex, race and orientation in one swell foop and act like it seriously informs someones decisions to go to parties, get out there, whatever. "Should I just go out tonight? Hmm, am I white, straight and male?" Derrrrrrrrrrp

  • mjgoins 12 years ago

    When you learn new things you stop reading?

  • Tehnix 12 years ago

    Why? or are you stating that social interactions have nothing to do with race, gender and sexuality? 'Cause then you and I simply do not live in the same world...

    As much as we all do want racism etc to go away, prejudices are a very real thing. The preface is relevant to his story.

  • egypturnash 12 years ago

    There are lots of people who are aware of the concept of privilege but do not make it one of the major subjects of their conversation. Some of them are even white het cis males.

    There are even people in technology who are not white, het, cis males.

  • electronous 12 years ago

    You're making HN awesome. Keep up the good work!

dkokelley 12 years ago

I have a technique for when I'm alone in a large social setting. Find other alone people. It's not hard to spot them if you're looking, and in most cases they will appreciate the friendliness.

This works especially well in a situation like a networking event or large party where it is unlikely that attendees will know everyone else.

  • nollidge 12 years ago

    My go-to icebreaker is "so, how do you know {party_host}?" Then share with them how you know {party_host}. That establishes a few things:

    1) Instant connection - we both know {party_host}

    2) You learn a detail about them (occupation, hobby, hometown)

    3) They learn a detail about you

    4) You've told someone why you're there, so then you won't feel like everyone's questioning your presence

    5) You've got a starting point for talking to more people (introduce this person to someone else you know, and/or they'll do likewise)

  • josefresco 12 years ago

    "It's not hard to spot them if you're looking"

    This scares the shit out of the socially awkward or those the article is referring to. When entering a situation where I know almost no one, I always try to comfort myself by repeating things like "not everyone is looking at you" and "you are just like everyone else here".

    However often times I take your advice and seek out other seemingly alone people and you're right, they're usually easy to spot .. if you're looking.

    • rcknight 12 years ago

      Both of these statements can be true ... if you specifically look around for people who are by themselves, they are easy to spot ... but the majority of people are not looking!

    • tekalon 12 years ago

      I have to agree. With my social anxiety I tend to be internally thinking 'Why are you talking to me, when can I get out of here'

  • throwmeaway2525 12 years ago

    Can't I upvote this twice? (It's the sort of comment that makes wading through a morass of negativity worthwhile.)

  • sjtgraham 12 years ago

    That's a great tip.

birken 12 years ago

I feel this is something that happens when people work at startups, especially early stage ones. There is such pressure to work with your small team and put all your time and effort into this startup (like all of the people who brag about working 80 or 100 weeks --- or the OP mentioning taking a nap at the office on friday night), that you are really sacrificing opportunity to build or maintain friendships with a wider group of people. There is nothing wrong with having 3 friends and doing a lot of stuff alone, however it also doesn't have to be that way if you don't want it to be.

Do you have any old college buddies who live in SF? Email them and ask to meet up for a beer. If you are interested in dating, go on okcupid. If you like playing sports, join an intramural sports team. If you like bar trivia, just go to your local trivia night and find a team of random people to join. All of these things take time and effort, but they will result in a larger, more diverse, group of friends.

The truth is this is probably negative value for ones startup. Giving 100% of your effort to a startup will probably make it more successful than giving it 80%. But you only get one life, and perhaps more friends and a less successful startup might make somebody happier.

  • jessepollak 12 years ago

    This is complicated for me because I'm not 21 just yet, so I bars and dating are often out. And all my college friends are still in school, so those friends don't exist yet. :)

    Regardless, the point still stands: finding balance is important.

    Really, although I didn't explicitly say it when I wrote this, this piece was a lot about finding that balance. For the first time in awhile, I broke away from the people I spend 99% of my time with. I started out alone and lonely, but by the end it wasn't so bad anymore. I wasn't constrained by the settings/people/activities that I've become so used to. I went to the Watsi party, I did a scavenger hunt with strangers, and I made a bunch of new friends. It was refreshing.

    • birken 12 years ago

      That is great. That is basically the point I am trying to make, which is that you should allocate some percentage of your time and energy to meet new people, which I think in particular in the startup world is not necessarily encouraged as much as it should be. However it sounds like you are well on your way :)

johnrob 12 years ago

I've come to enjoy many aspects of going out in the world alone (most are simply the effect of removing the 'distraction' of company):

- Much greater awareness of other people and surroundings.

- Great opportunity to take stock of what is good/bad in your life (for some reason it's easier to do this outside the house).

- Bursts of creativity (hint: this is a great way to fight writer's block).

These are just the ones I can think of at the moment. One piece of advice for anyone who feels self conscious when alone: since everyone else is amongst friends, they probably won't even notice you. We naturally assume our increased awareness (due to being alone!) is shared by everyone around us - that's not the case though.

jyrkesh 12 years ago

Can't really comment on the startup side of things seeing as I'm still in university, but having recently done an internship in a town where I knew no one and going back to school and moving into a place with no roommates for the first time, I've been forced into environments where absolutely no one is encouraging me to go out or meet people or have fun. It's unbelievably easy to stay in and watch Netflix, have a couple beers, and stay inside. Having a large house to myself every single night (after a long bout of having many roommates), I often feel relaxed to be away from everyone, but it can also be very stifling: the silence, the lack of movement, the lack of anything but noise through headphones.

I'm typically very busy during the day, so nightlife is my primary means of social activity. When I show up to parties, it's usually alone, and that's something I've had to adjust to. I go to bars, often alone, and I turn my phone off and strike up conversations. At first, it's incredibly difficult, but over time it becomes more fun. Over the summer, this culminated in my attending multiple music festivals where I spent a majority of the day having a blast in a group of complete strangers, most of whom I will likely never see again. But that's now a shared experience that I never would have just watching Netflix.

One of the most interesting things I've noticed, though, is the reaction others have when I tell them I go to parties or bars by myself (or even to dinner or to movies alone). They're taken aback, and they almost try to marginalize you as some sort of loner. I have plenty of very close friends, and I do my best to spend time with them, but embracing being alone has almost made me less alone in many cases.

  • sblawrie 12 years ago

    'One of the most interesting things I've noticed, though, is the reaction others have when I tell them I go to parties or bars by myself (or even to dinner or to movies alone). They're taken aback, and they almost try to marginalize you as some sort of loner.'

    I've actually had the opposite experience. Sometimes I'll go to bars by myself just to hit on girls. When your friends aren't around to watch, it reduces the downside and fear of rejection.

    Usually, if it's going well, I'll tell her I'm there by myself, and they tend to be impressed I had the confidence to go out by myself and approach them.

    • theorique 12 years ago

      Usually, if it's going well, I'll tell her I'm there by myself, and they tend to be impressed I had the confidence to go out by myself and approach them.

      Absolutely. People follow your lead.

      If your manner suggests that you're ashamed of what you're doing, or that you think you're doing something 'wrong' or 'awkward', they will believe that.

      If your manner suggests that you're engaged in the most normal activity in the world - being friendly as a human being, going out and interacting with other human beings - then you will put others at ease and they will be comfortable and friendly around you.

      Now, that's not to say that everyone will think it's normal. But that's OK - people who find your behavior objectionable or 'strange' are probably not a very good fit as a friend or a lover.

    • jyrkesh 12 years ago

      Oh that's absolutely true for me. I was talking more about the reaction you get when you're telling your regular friends that last night you went out to a bar by yourself.

rb2k_ 12 years ago

I'll be moving from Germany to Boston in a month, one of the things that I'm looking forward to is the chance to enjoy this process of "being alone" and "Pushing back on discomfort".

As much as I enjoy the company of my friends, having complete freedom and no accountability to anybody also has its advantages :)

That being said, cities like SF/Boston/New York/... make it easy to keep "alone" from turning into "lonely". I couldn't imagine doing the same in the far out suburbs.

  • lemonberry 12 years ago

    Do yourself a favor and visit Portsmouth, NH after you are acclimated to Boston or just need a reprieve from big city life. It's a smallish city with a great bar and restaurant scene. If you are into history there are also some wonderful opportunities to explore as well. Be warned, however, New Englander's can come off cold compared to people from other parts of the country. We make great friends but it takes awhile to get there.

    • GrinningFool 12 years ago

      When I was living in NE, I was still 'the new kid from up the road' for five years ;)

      I'd love to get back though, NE is my favorite among many places lived on the East coast.

    • rb2k_ 12 years ago

      I'm from Germany. As much as New Englanders hate to hear it, you guys are all warm and welcoming in comparison.

    • replicatorblog 12 years ago

      Are you based in Portsmouth? I'm a fellow Granite State techie, always excited to hear of others!

      • lemonberry 12 years ago

        I live in Wakefield but have worked in Portsmouth for a long time and spend most of my time there. Just breaking into the tech sector now. I'm a big fan of New Hampshire and New England in general.

  • marcosdumay 12 years ago

    > I couldn't imagine doing the same in the far out suburbs.

    Well, I don't know the US suburbs, but as a rule, the smaller the place, the easier it is to know people.

    • VLM 12 years ago

      Its just mindless burb-bashing, doesn't mean a thing. I can assure you that a school campus in a big city isn't all that different than a school campus in a small city. Ditto museums, bars, concerts, whatever. They'll be some cultural offset what with the people being richer and the surroundings being somewhat more civilized, but its usually not a big deal.

      The huge hang up is getting confused about geography. In a big city, nearly every street corner has a bar, restaurant, "something". So you get a hangup that what makes a city friendly somehow has something to do with street intersections or panhandlers or something, not the bar/museum/whatever found at those intersections. Then you visit a suburb and decide to socialize so you've learned that means finding a street intersection, so you stand at a random corner in your subdivision and ... nothing happens. That's because you need to go to a bar or park or cultural activity, not the mere street intersection.

      Its confusing correlation with causation. I had fun; there's a homeless dude living in the alley; therefore you can't have fun without a homeless dude in the alley. Um no not really.

      • rb2k_ 12 years ago

        Nah, it's just that I've lived in suburbs and big cities. I enjoy tech meetups. Suburbs don't have them. It's just a numbers game of finding likeminded people. If your interest is a 1 in 1000 thing, you will find a few people in a city with a million inhabitants, with 5000 you probably won't

    • rb2k_ 12 years ago

      I don't want to get to know random people, I want to get to know a certain subset of people that share my interests.

Nilzor 12 years ago

What does he mean with "When we’re alone, we’ve been conditioned by society to believe that we should stay alone."? I waiting for an explanation in the article but it never came

spennino 12 years ago

Now no one has an excuse not to come to the next Watsi / Teespring party!

themoonbus 12 years ago

This reads like a talk that someone would give at orientation in college... does the tech community in SF really need this much help socializing?

  • Yhippa 12 years ago

    I am thinking the same things. At some point you have to make friends from scratch. They aren't just given to you.

    As for the "doing things alone" I've noticed that people don't like doing that. Traveling, going to see a movie, or attending an event all seem to be things that have a stigma attached to doing them solo.

    • VLM 12 years ago

      Example #4 Going to a restaurant

      Example #5 Going to a park, especially an "improved" park with kids playground and you're a dude.

      Example #6 Wilderness hiking (although this is really a safety issue, and as a lifelong hiker I assure you your local hiking club is a fantastic way to meet people)

    • fotbr 12 years ago

      People (in general) don't like OTHER people doing that. They assume that the person going solo is lonely, sad, and is generally someone to be pitied, mocked, or both. The stigma is not attached by the people going solo, it's attached by everyone else.

      • smacktoward 12 years ago

        Assuming that's true -- so what? Who cares what a bunch of people you'll never see or talk to again in your life think about you?

        It's like Eleanor Roosevelt said (more or less: http://quoteinvestigator.com/2011/03/30/not-inferior/): "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."

        Not doing something you want to do because "they'll all laugh at me" is you giving your consent to being made to feel inferior. Their opinion only matters because you make it matter, by caring about it enough to let it stop you from doing something you want to do.

        You may feel like their opinion puts shackles around your ankles, but really the shackles only exist in your mind. Stop believing in them and they disappear.

        • jabbernotty 12 years ago

          > Their opinion only matters because you make it matter, by caring about it enough to let it stop you from doing something you want to do.

          I disagree. If enough people in your community say that you are unwanted, you will become unwanted.

    • TillE 12 years ago

      Really? I'd say eating at a restaurant alone is unusual (carry a notepad and pretend you're a critic), but going to a rock concert or traveling alone is very normal. You meet tons of solo travelers in their 20s or 30s at hostels across Europe.

    • vonseel 12 years ago

      I went to a restaurant alone once. I was a teenager; this was almost 10 years ago.

      I remember my conversation with the hostess going something like this:

      Hostess: "So...just one today?"

      Me: "Yep."

      Hostess: "Oh.. Do you want me to bring you a magazine or something?"

Touche 12 years ago

> When alone in a sea of strangers, no such frameworks exist, so change is easier — we can experiment with who we are and how we act. We can construct a new identity framework for every new conversation we have. We can try being someone else.

This is very true, and why I find myself most comfortable around people I don't know, especially if there is no expectation that I'm going to ever talk to them again. It's very freeing to be able to be your absolute self with no baggage or expectations.

Whenever I'm around friends I've had since high school I find myself acting very different than I normally do, in order to maintain that identity framework I've built for them. It takes a little while to slide into that identity but once I do I'm fairly comfortable.

I really struggle around casual acquaintances. I just don't know what to say to these people. We already know each other well enough, but without a desire to become close friends with them you're stuck simply refreshing each other on what you've been up to.

robertnealan 12 years ago

A few summers back I opted to ride my bike back to San Francisco from Washington DC rather than fly. Everyone thought it was crazy to do it alone (and I secretly agreed), but in reality it was one of the best decisions I ever made. Over those 2 1/2 months I met countless people, slept on numerous strangers' couches, and made more friends than any other period of my life (several of whom I still keep in regular contact). It was awkward and it was comfortable, but it was an experience I'd encourage anybody interested to take.

Like Jesse said, acting Y around someone whose used to you acting X can cause reason for concern and alarm. When you're alone you don't have those checks/balances and can really evaluate who you are without the boundaries that persist in your normal social circle. "Aloneness" can be uncomfortable and confusing, but rewarding if you manage to wade through it all.

On the flipside I regretfully now tend to cause awkward situations by being too casual with people I've just met. Whoops?

iamleppert 12 years ago

While reading this I couldn't help but feel sorry for this guy. What a depressing and uninspiring life to pour all your energy into one thing and at the same time sacrifice some of the best years of your life. For what? A start-up and the promise of becoming rich or tech famous?

We are all social creatures. The inability to be social is most definitely a problem, and leading a lifestyle that deprives you of a stimulating, diverse group of friends is damaging and unsustainable.

I'm happy this guy ventured out into an unfamiliar social situation. People are often afraid of doing stuff like this because they think it will be uncomfortable. And, indeed, sometimes it is. However, that doesn't mean you need to become anti-social.

lemonberry 12 years ago

Good for you for breaking out of your comfort zone. It's not easy to do. But with practice just about anything gets easier. I'm naturally very social and "good with people" so this is rarely a problem I experience. I have, however, coached friends on interacting with others. A few points to consider for anyone that finds social interactions difficult: 1. breathe - sounds so obvious, but people tense up 2. listen 2. ask questions of others and be interested 3. listen 4. humility - don't try to impress everyone

Again, nice work for getting out there.

pearjuice 12 years ago

I come to HN for intriguing, inspiring and educative news/items followed by proper discussion. For the life of me I fail to comprehend why this diary-blog-post managed to get, at the time of writing, 144 points and still not have a [dead] tag prepended to it. This is Hacker News. Not Tumblr-privilege-core. The only thing related to HN I could find in that entire article was Watsi. And then even that was taken downhill by appending "party" to it.

  • DanBC 12 years ago

    Social isolation and difficulty in meeting people are going to be problems for some people on HN.

    > For the life of me I fail to comprehend [...]

    You just failed to spot the market opportunity, the problem that people have that needs to be solved.

forsaken 12 years ago

A fantastic video along the same lines: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7X7sZzSXYs

nowarninglabel 12 years ago

As a socially awkward individual, I couldn't think of a better place to get out in public then at Watsi / Teespring / Goldbelly HQ. Chase, Netta, Grace, and the whole Watsi team are super awesome people and passionate about what they are doing. At their office warming party they had an office naming contest which got people talking/connected, have to wonder what ended up being the winning name?

Demiurge 12 years ago

So, is Twitter or Facebook the only way to get randomly invited to a party with your social compatibility? Is privacy equivalent to aloneness nowdays?

nutela 12 years ago

Very good write up. Esp. about the identies framework. When you are feeling not really yourself it's time to explore! Best is when the sence of self dissapears, look how many friends you make then :-)

mrwnmonm 12 years ago

i have a problem with people also, i have something like a thread running trying to analysing everything the other person is saying but not in a normal way, i just don't feel comfort, it like a threat i should defend by thinking very quickly, anyone else have this problem?

epsylon 12 years ago

> Aloneness is not loneliness

Isn't "aloneness" what English-speaking people usually call solitude?

Adamantite 12 years ago

If you're a participant of social media, namely Twitter or Facebook, reciprocating with people on the Internet, you run a popular blog, and you're the guy on this page by the same name: https://getclef.com/company

You're not alone. You're privileged. You probably don't even know what real loneliness is. You're just a hipster who thinks they're alone, so you can write a blog post about it and get views. I doubt there are any actual lonely people in San Francisco or Oakland who work at a start up. After all, isn't that why you moved there despite how expensive it is? It's a glorious hub of youth and social activity, that's why you moved there. Don't bullshit with real loneliness.

  • wbobeirne 12 years ago

    > You're not alone. You're privileged. You probably don't even know what real loneliness is.

    Did you even read the article? He addresses your first point in the beginning, and your second point at the end of the article. No bullshitting here.

  • farinasa 12 years ago

    How easy it must be to dismiss someone based solely on their physical characteristics. Isn't this the very thing your rant aims to protest, namely, discrimination?

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