Why I left my tech job to work on chronic pain

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364 points by glasscannon 3 days ago


aspbee555 - 3 days ago

I felt like I was dying at 35 years old, my body was completely betraying me, exhausted, constant pain, no life as absolutely no energy on days off and still exhausted starting the next week. Even years in the Army never left me feeling like that

I had no idea it was the misery of the IT job that was causing most of my pain and suffering, and it had nothing to do with the job itself, it was the endless insanity of everyone else around me doing exactly what they were informed would cause problems instead of having discussions with people that actually knew how shit worked. I was endlessly picking up everyone elses mess and treated worse than a pile of shit all because people were incapable of having a speck of respect for other people since all their hatred for computers fell on me

I GTFO of the career of misery and took half a decade to finally start feeling better

I have now spent years and countless hours working on software and I greatly enjoy doing this work again and find I get even more done than I used to simply by doing life the way I need to instead of how some backwards/abusive control freak "needs it done"

algo_lover - 2 days ago

Why do all such articles never talk about the meat of the solution? Why do I always feel like I'm being sold something.

Why is it so hard to explain the solution briefly, or directly present it to me upfront. Why does it need so much of mystery around it?

In this article the OP does not even mention "Pain reprocessing theory" which is what they seems to be talking about (based on the study they have linked)

glasscannon - 3 days ago

I recently decided to go all in on addressing chronic pain - a condition which affects an estimated 1/5 adults in the US[1] and nearly the same proportion in my country of Australia.

This is the first of several blog posts exploring this invisible condition.

If you're passionate about this space feel free to reach out, thanks!

[1] https://www.cdc.gov/mmwr/volumes/72/wr/mm7215a1.htm [data from 2021]

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[Edit] Thanks so much everyone! Excited to get the next article out soon!

kianN - 3 days ago

“As pain becomes chronic, it is increasingly associated with activity in the affective and motivational systems tied to avoidance and less closely tied to systems encoding nociceptive input” [1]

I’ve been on the slippery slope of chronic pain. Minor post surgery issues caused me to change my routine and avoid certain activities which only exacerbated the issues, which led to more avoidance. Eventually I couldn’t walk.

The American medical system is very focused on avoiding health issues that show up on mri, rather than quality of life health. But quality of life issues quickly become serious.

I think the middle ground of activity: not all out intense as if you are healthy, but also not avoiding movement is so challenging to find for many people but also so crucial. A lot of chronic pain for myself and I suspect for many others could be avoided with short and quick combination of therapy and daily movement. So simple but so challenging to effectively identify and allocate resources.

Not suggesting this is the total solution but it’s the pathway that I took to return to activity and I’ve seen it help a number of my friends as well.

[1] https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC8482298/

foobiekr - 2 days ago

I have a pretty severe back injury - double pars fracture and significant spondylolisthesis from an accident (not a car accident). For many years i was in incredible pain, but it just kept going, sometimes getting a lot worse. When this happened I would go get some imaging done to make sure there weren't degenerative changes that needed to be addressed - you should never, ever get back surgery if you don't need it, so I am cautious about it. But I noticed something, all on my own, and that is that it seemed to correlate with periods of intense stress. I still have a ton of stress, but recognizing that actually kind of made a tremendous difference.

I hesitate to add a link to this on the thread, but there is an interesting story around chronic pain actually being psychological and there are now some high quality studies coming out.

https://journals.lww.com/painrpts/Fulltext/2021/09000/Psycho...

I especially hate to link to LessWrong but this is an actually decent thread on the topic:

https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/BgBJqPv5ogsX4fLka/the-mind-b...

I didn't know about any of this and had never been exposed to any of it when I drew my conclusions and started to feel less pain. Don't get me wrong, there are still things that will set my back off, but now I probably go actual years without even thinking about it.

mattgreenrocks - 3 days ago

I’ve been dealing with chronic reflux for about 8 mos now. On PPIs and they don’t seem to do much. But once I get away from my typical routine of work/dadding then all the symptoms vanish, even to the point of being able to eat foods that are not good for reflux: spicy things, tomatoes, a bit of coffee. In my case, this is absolutely a downstream symptom of something mind-body. Already been scoped and got a diagnosis of visceral hypersensitivity, which is medical speak for “nerves in esophagus are too sensitive.”

The question of why is out of scope.

In this case, docs just don’t know why. (I think it kinda pisses them off not know, tbh). And finding out is not really in their wheelhouse.

I’ve made some life changes (new job) to see what happens here. But I also have to be prepared for the possibility that it doesn’t fix it. Been working through The Body Keeps The Score as well.

Looking forward to seeing what the author discusses here.

nwienert - 3 days ago

As someone who had years of undiagnosable pain and after many years (and more than one doctor trying to suggest it was all in my head) I just want to say to anyone reading who has it -

Don’t let yourself be gaslit that it’s all mental. It seems some do have that, but there are also many hard to diagnose and completely valid physical health conditions that cause terrible chronic pain. And don’t give up on trying to find out what they are. Once I did, I was able to largely manage mine, and more importantly, to stop constantly questioning my own sanity.

NoTranslationL - 3 days ago

I make an app called Reflect [0] that’s designed to track things like chronic pain and help you get to the root cause with self guided experiments. I’ve used it for my own pain symptoms, especially joint pain. Happy to answer any questions. Wish you the best on your journey.

[0] https://apps.apple.com/us/app/reflect-track-anything/id64638...

ThinkBeat - 2 days ago

He decided he could monetize his recovery by selling the "the cure" on a newsletter basis and using organic growth to make more money.

As he does point out he is not a doctor and his solution is not backed by extensive medical studies.

He could just write a document laying it all out, and letting people download it, easier for everyone.

(and try to get some researchers do the chekcing).

This is damn close to snakeoil.

Aurornis - 3 days ago

> For the next 4 years, I continued to accumulate weird and persistent pains in different parts of my body.

Anyone who is accumulating weird pains in random, different locations should definitely pursue some of these alternative explanations. Another sign that these techniques are appropriate is if the pains come and go depending on your mood or situation (worse when working, disappear when doing something fun) or are prone to suggestion (someone talks about their back pain and then you have back pain for the following days or weeks).

However, I’m also getting tired of the people who benefit from this techniques deciding that their explanation for chronic pain covers everyone. It’s a huge trend in parts of tech Twitter right now to apply these theories to all chronic pain. A small number of people who had unexplainable pain and addressed it through meditation, therapy, and similar techniques are now pushing it as a far more universal explanation. It really needs to be applied to the appropriate situation, not used as a universal treatment for chronic pains.

This parallels similar trends with topics like PTSD, where a smaller group of people have benefited from therapy that addresses past trauma and now they’re trying to export the theory that past trauma and PTSD is the explanation for all psychological ills. Again, matching the right treatment to the condition is critical and being open-minded is important, but beware of people who are preaching that doctors are misinformed and you should subscribe to their app, blog, newsletter, or course instead.

littlexsparkee - 2 days ago

I dealt with mobility issues the last 2.5 years after turf toe (healed after 1 year and then reinjured), didn't realize how crucial strengthening was after losing muscle resting, then after research found out how critical loading tendons is to having them repaired. I left my stable job a couple of months ago to dedicate myself to getting my life back. I'd let thumb RSI simmer for a long time too, even though I got to the point where I could do most things with Talon (friction made me get lazy occasionally). The hardest part is mental - the ups and downs, isolation, not knowing what to do to fix yourself, feeling like your body is betraying you and the lack of help from the medical system besides some basic scans and generic advice. I'm glad that I had a cushion so that I haven't had to stress too much taking time off.

To folks dealing with physical pain, I recommend: Built From Broken by Scott Hogan, Rehab Science by Tom Walters.

For joint issues these may help: celadrin, pro-resolving mediators, red mineral algae w/ aquamin, natural eggshell membrane, collagen peptides w/ fortigel.

quicktemp42 - 3 days ago

I’ve been struggling with chronic pain for almost eight months. It started when my orthodontic treatment caused the root of one of my teeth to break—it had already been weakened from a previous injury. The extraction was straightforward and only took 10 minutes, and I had an implant placed (with a temporary crown attached to my braces). Healing went smoothly, and the CT scans looked fine.

But soon after, I developed constant headaches that never went away. At first, I assumed they were related to the procedure, but everything had healed well, and multiple check-ups didn’t reveal anything. Since then, my braces have been removed, but the daily headaches persist. Occasionally, I also feel a strange “foreign object” sensation around the implant site.

A follow-up CT scan of the implant showed perfect integration with the bone. I’ve also had other tests done, including a head MRI. Medically, everything appears normal.

It’s getting really hard to manage—painkillers don’t help at all. Has anyone experienced something similar or have any idea what to try next? I’m even considering having the implant removed, despite there being no medical reason for it.

anon1685212382 - 2 days ago

Since I became 30yo, I suffered various health issues. I see people much older than me including my parents who were in much better shape, and I kept thinking what was wrong with me. I’m 37yo now and in almost the best shape of my life, and there was so much I learned - I’m sharing here in case it can help others.

First: With the exception of extreme health issues (e.g. Cancer), you likely have a good chance of resolving your health issues. Don’t be discouraged by your chronic pains and think you have to now live with the pain or health issues for the rest of your life. Tackle your health issues like any other engineering problem: understand the problem, make a plan, execute, monitor progress, and iterate over this process (e.g. revise your plans). If you do not take action, nothing will change.

Second: Stress is a killer. I’ve had to visit the emergency room twice because I thought I either had a heart attack or I was dying from high blood pressure. I was way too into my work (due to both passion and commitment), that delays with my projects gave me high mental pressure. Upon re-evaluating my life, I asked myself: which is more important, my work or my health? Once I started prioritizing my health and started pushing back on unreasonable timelines, my stress is gone and none of the chest pain, headache, and high blood pressure issues have come up again.

Last but not least: Your body is a very complex machine and you need to learn how to use it correctly. I had a very sedentary lifestyle and had many chronic pains, e.g. heels, ankles, knees, hip, elbow, wrist, etc. My body was so weak that I even injured my neck and back once just by sleeping in a not-so-great position. I found an awesome PT who specialized in holistic physical therapy and he helped address issues from my feet all the way to my neck. I am now able to resume all the activities from my younger days such as DDR & tennis. There’s too much to explain here but I have two key takeaways: one is my body was extremely tight & inflexible and PNF treatment from my PT was needed for recovery, and another is I just didn’t know my body and muscles well. I did not know how various muscles work, how to use my body & muscles effectively, and what exercises to do and their correct form. Learning and doing the exercises properly and frequently changed my life. Btw: I highly do NOT recommend all the YouTube fitness videos - you simply just cannot tell if what they’re saying is correct and whether their suggestion is even the correct remedy for your problem.

That is all. I wish everyone good luck in addressing their chronic pain!

doddpronter - 2 days ago

It's crazy how much your physical health is tied to mental happiness/lack of stress. I had a friend that during his most stressful period as a 24 year old in Investment Banking had strep throat 4 times in 2 months.

Several doctor visits concluded that it was the long hours and insane amount of stress that was severely crushing his immune system.

Moral of the story is love what you do and take care of yourself: nothing is as important as your own health and happiness

Adrig - 3 days ago

I've dealt with chronic illnesses for the past 10+ years now. It's such a hard path.

I recently found out after a violent burn-out that a significant cause was chronic stress and its psychosomatic symptoms. It made me have a hard look at the topic, and I'm gradually adjusting to solve the issue.

If I get better, I'm tempted to do as OP and spend more time working on this issue for others. It seems so much more impactful than grinding the tech / startup life.

xyst - 2 days ago

Very odd pipeline from rank and file tech employee to wellness and alternative medicine "influencer".

Ticks all the boxes:

- not a doctor

- not a physical therapist

- offering tips to solve your pain that somehow nobody could

- emphasizing a single "landmark" study with no other context

- results based off of personal experience

Guy is trying to become the RFK Jr of Aussie land.

ChrisMarshallNY - 3 days ago

I was just talking to a friend of mine, yesterday, about what happened to me.

In 2017, I was laid off of my job (of almost 27 years). I immediately started looking for work. Since the company I worked for, was a marquee-name company, I assumed that it wouldn't be hard.

Boy, was I in for a shock.

I almost immediately learned that no one in tech, is interested in hiring a 55-year-old, regardless of their pedigree. I could have gotten a job, but those companies made it clear that I would be treated quite badly.

So I made the decision to just throw in the towel and retire. I had the means, but I would have liked to have at least another ten years of salary. I have never had any intentions of stopping working, though. I love developing software. It's a hobby and a personal passion; not just a job.

I was really pissed off at the treatment. I suffered great butthurt.

But in the long run, it's the best thing that ever happened to me. I never realized how much stress I was under, while working. I sincerely believe that, if I had kept working, it would have killed me. I have no intentions of returning to the rodent rally; even though I'm quite good at what I do, thanks to all the learning that I've done, in the last eight years.

I now work every day (my GH Activity Graph is quite green), and do a fairly good job on my chosen projects, but I no longer feel that awful weight on my soul.

Sometimes, the only way that we learn how much pain we are in, is to stop suffering it for a while.

ck2 - 2 days ago

Low‐Dose Naltrexone aka LDN

not a cure and barely a treatment but it's one of the only tools in the toolbox

Modulates endorphin receptors (by blocking them for a little while)

Not only causes the body to produce more endorphins to reduce pain but is actually proven in studies to make the ion channels work better if dysfunctional

https://scholar.google.com/scholar?q=Low-Dose+Naltrexone

https://reddit.com/r/LowDoseNaltrexone

zermelo44 - 2 days ago

Thanks for posting. I look forward to following along.

I have had chronic pain and other annoying functional neurological symptoms for the past 4 years. It started about halfway throughout my PhD.

I was born with congenital torticollis (fibrosis of the right sternocleidomastoid muscle) and had surgery for this twice when I was young. I also had 3 other surgical procedures for different reasons as a child.

Because my pain started in my neck and shoulder, I was set on believing that my previous surgeries were the cause of my pain. But as I learned more, meditated more, did yoga more, and faced pushback (and lots of confusion) from health professionals, it became clear that my symptoms are mainly "mind-body" (I hate that dualistic term).

I'd be very interested in talking more.

alshival - 2 days ago

I feel you. Used to work 16 hours a day. I quit my job and started freelancing. These days, I only commit 20 hours a week to work. Still make enough to pay my bills and live a little, but I won't be getting a boat anytime soon. But with that extra time, I go to the gym, play video games, or blast the neighborhood using my brand spanking new Eric Clapton Pewder Strat.

I have 15 years in data, and 10 years in machine-learning. Back in 2016, I couldn't find a job doing machine-learning. These days, I don't worry anymore about finding work. Things have improved.

nico - 2 days ago

For people on the spectrum here, just want to add to the thread the term Fibromyalgia

It seems to be relatively common and under diagnosed. Also somehow controversial and not fully understood

However, looking into it might shed some light on some issues of chronic pain and potential ways to address it

mgz18 - 2 days ago

When I was 34, I was laying in bed one night and noticed that muscles all over my body were twitching. It didn't go away. A month later I went to a neurologist in my hometown in the midwest for a workup that culminated in a EMG-NCV study (the neurologist doing that study asked if I liked the NY Yankees.. "I do not.. and I've definitely never heard of Lou Gehrig.. so let's get on with it.."). Ultimately he congratulated me on having no signs of ALS or any other neurodegenerative disease and told me to "live your life." He hadn't seen the widespread persistent muscle twitching I was experiencing before. Six months later, I went to another neurologist, this time at Stanford. She did another workup and said the same things as the first guy, except she added, "yeah, we see this fairly often." The diagnosis was "Benign Fasciculation Syndrome" (BFS), aka "we don't know what caused everything to start twitching or how to stop it, but it won't progress and kill you."

What really struck me was that 1) the midwestern neurologist seemed to have never seen symptoms like mine, whereas the Stanford neurologist had seen them often, and 2) the Stanford neurologist linked it to poorly managed anxiety. At the time I was five years into a data scientist role at a big tech company in the bay area (now it's two year later - the symptoms improved somewhat but are still there). I definitely had burnout and mental health problems and was in denial about them ("I have all these great perks, how could my work be causing my mental health issues?").

The best thing you can say about BFS is it isn't physically painful; I am definitely not equating it with the chronic pain issues that others have described on this thread, which seem much tougher. It's another one of those things that has no known cure (diet / lifestyle / mental health improvements help somewhat), is only vaguely understood ("your nerves are oversensitive"), is linked to mental health issues, and seems overrepresented in the bay area (maybe in other tech/urban centers too, I don't know). Two years in, I don't have any answers, just wanted to share in case it's helpful to anyone.

varispeed - 2 days ago

Why this has so many upvotes? This is very much a wall of text with just waffle and very little substance.

The "mind-body" thing is a great tool for doctors who are into abuse and take pleasure in having power over their patients.

"You are still having chronic pain, because you are not working hard enough!"

"No, I will not prescribe you medication. The pain is in your head!"

Oh and abusive partners also love this crap. You have a flare up? No you don't! You are just a lazy slob who doent't want to work and is whinging like a little baby. Stop imagining your pain!

GTFO with this crap.

godot - 2 days ago

I'd be curious to follow along and read more. My experience is that everyone's body is quite different and what causes chronic issues with everyone can be quite different. That's not to say his observations and solutions won't be useful to others, but it's another good anecdote to understand and things worth trying for others having similar issues.

I myself for example have had headache and migraine issues for more than 25 years. I understand deeply an incredible amount about what causes my migraines, how they feel, how I help with it, and so on. I understand migraines more than anyone else I ever know in my life because I observe, pay attention, study, and try different things so much. I understand it more than most doctors I talk to. But I also know that everyone's migraines are a little different and not everyone gets triggered by the same things (though there's a lot of overlaps) and my solutions may not help for everyone. I'd totally write something like this for migraines if I had the time (I don't :( ).

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mieubrisse - 2 days ago

YES! I'm experiencing a separate-but-related problem to do with myopia, and my eyes perpetually getting longer (likely due to the long hours of computer use).

I wish I could go back to completely undistracted building, but I realize now that I was a bit addicted and that level of intensity was hurting me.

Now what occupies my waking hours is, "How can I debug this failing system?"

wysewun - 2 days ago

Have had long term chronic pain. Think possibly due to a combination of tendinitis and lack of movemen as a dev

Our bodies aren’t meant to be in one position for that long no matter the ergonomics unless you know what you’re doing.

Lots of people mock tiktok for the dancing but in observing the dances, I’ve grown an appreciation for full range of movement and trying to increase range of motion in the joints

I was able to find some exercises that helped in this to decompress but I can go into more detail if people want

bGl2YW5j - 2 days ago

What a coincidence! I’m also in Australia and have just finished a self-imposed 8 month holiday from the tech world BS you describe.

I started the holiday super jaded with the idea of working in tech forever. I spent my time on everything but tech. Recently my passion has been reignited and I’ve got more clarity around what it is about tech and my career I enjoy, and what I want from my future.

Now, I’m working on a healthcare service for chronic disease.

ekianjo - 3 days ago

> Before moving forward - I’m not a doctor. Just a bit of a nerd with a blog. Please do not sue me or use these posts as a replacement for medical care.

unnecessary disclaimer here. when it comes to chronic pain treatment doctors are mostly useless or even harmful, proposing surgeries or drugs that will do more bad than anything else because they have no interest in learning how to customize their approach and will parrot and prescribe what they heard from medical representatives. Remember, the opoids crisis was enabled by doctors in the first place.

twodave - 3 days ago

Life is pain, highness. Anyone who says different is selling something.

halayli - 2 days ago

Prolonged stress is often a major contributor to cp. The problem is that after being stressed for a long period we no longer feel the weight until it's fully lifted which requires taking some time off and the majority of us are not in a position to do that.

keysdev - 2 days ago

I highly recommend look at Susan Luschas web site. [1] She is also a former tech person who is doing deep dive into debugging health. Much chronic pain maybe dental and organ related.

1. https://debugyourhealth.com/

bentt - a day ago

Are you familiar with Dr. John Sarno's work and if so, how does it relate to what you'll be writing about?

storus - 2 days ago

If your pain stems from covid, try high doses of thiamine or alternatively TTFD. Quite a few people reported feeling great for the first time in ages after a single high dose and there seem to be some studies showing pain disappearance in fibromyalgia.

tdn291 - 3 days ago

Great article, will watch your developments with great interest!

rickvidallon - 2 days ago

Any pixel pushers out there experience PMR? aka Polymyalgia rheumatica

superb-owl - 3 days ago

related: https://x.com/mxslk/status/1940832698366619681

sydbarrett74 - 3 days ago

Thank you for sharing your story, and congrats on your endeavour.

pstuart - 2 days ago

The mind/body part for dealing with chronic pain is vital to embrace, but isn't always enough. Finding ways to "attack" pain would be a relief to millions.

The best I've been able to find is kratom, but that's not without its concerns -- drug laws are no friend to pain patients (let alone society as a whole).

Pro tip: get a shingles vaccine if you are able to -- postherpetic neuralgia is no fun.

paulcole - 2 days ago

This should be a show HN.

heraldgeezer - a day ago

Weight needs to be mentioned more. Even in Europe 50% or so are overweight or obese.

monkeyelite - 2 days ago

Another post reflecting the aging HN population.

butterisgood - a day ago

I mean… tech jobs are already there TBH.

srshihab - 2 days ago

Hi

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No idea

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amai - 2 days ago

tldr; Pain Reprocessing Therapy: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/34586357/

As stated at the end, the authors of the study have a lot of conflicting interests.

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incomingpain - 3 days ago

>Pain Reprocessing Therapy

I asked chatgpt to explain this to me and it did a poor job.

Generally speaking in my friend group. Chronic pain used to be opiods; though long ago medical cannabis came along. I couldnt tell you how many people i know who arent stoners who got into the cbd thing and fully got off opiods. 1 addiction for another, but at least cannabis has far less negatives.

>If you don’t have chronic pain and you’re just here for vibes and to see some cute brains, I really appreciate you .

The problem, CBD never fixes the pain. ~8 hours later you need more.

There's no business case for solving chronic pain. Here's my take.

1. There can be cases where there's something legitimately physically wrong causing chronic pain. In detroit I had a friend who got shot with birdshot, a tiny pellet was in his spine that surgeons didnt want to go after but there's no getting away from that pain. If this is the case, you're not seeking explanation.

2. There's stress/emotional pain. "The body keeps the score" by Bessel van der Kolk. He's big on EMDR and yoga. Your achilles pain and such absolutely could be, Probably something like 'change or abandonment' one of my favourites for yoga: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2XhJ63OQ7Ww

Do that 23 minute video and see if it helps.

3. Mindfulness meditation. Get into the most comfortable position possible. Dont move; and far more difficult dont think. Your mind will wander. If the pain is in your achilles. The only thing you're doing is monitoring the pain. What's the exact shape of the pain? Is it 4 inches long or is it only 2 inches? Is it sharp like a knife, or is it round in shape? Do you have any taste, smell, or sound from it? You need to wait as long as you have to, maybe it only makes a sound every 2 minutes, you have to wait and your focus is only on waiting for the sound and nothing else.

4. Yoga nidra or progressive muscle relaxation. Start at your toes, you try to flex the muscles to the maximum and hold for 5 seconds, release. then do your feet, ankles, legs, every muscle has to have been flexed and held for 5 seconds. Then when you're done, you simply do nothing at all. dont even focus on anything; maybe your breath at most.